What is it with love?

You don't really choose who you love
or who loves you back.
You don't choose when it happens
or what will accompany it.
You feel like dying when you love someone
and they don't love you back.
Awkward conversations follow a break-up
and sometimes you loose a good friend.

And when you're shy?
Oh, boy that just makes it worse.
You sit back and watch your crush
wishing you could be with him
wishing you had the courage to tell him
but all you can manage is a whispered
"I love you" that only you can hear.

And when he dates someone?
That hurts.
You can't deny it.
And when it's a hated enemy?
It's twice as bad.
But when it's a friend?
A friend who knew you loved him?
That hurts worse.

Nothing about it makes sense, you see?

But what do I know about love?
Can I truly say I'm in love?
Yes, no.
I don't know.
It's hard to tell.
Everyone's opinion varies.
You say you love someone
but what does love mean to you?
Sex?
Spending time together?
Just sharing precious moments of your life?
All the above?
It's impossible to tell if you're in love.
At least it is for me.
I know I like him.
Alot.
But do I truly love him?
Love is a strong word.
A strong emotion.
Love... is the opposite of hate,
am I right?
So one should not use the term lightly.

But how do you know when the time is right to use it?

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Having a crush really sucks. I hate it. -_-' Cause I'm too shy to ask someone out. So I just wander around liking people. Curse you highschool, curse you.